If I stop worrying about something after I tell myself that “worrying is pointless”, am I fooling myself. Am I being fake to myself? I’ve heard that worrying is pointless, and every time I think of it, it makes sense. But I have trouble removing it.

Along the same lines, I can show up to tournament with a chip on my shoulder and some confidence, instead of respecting players I’ve never seen before. It’s like faking yourself in both cases for the better.

Taking a break from the tournament life, has been great. I almost feel like the “tennis me” is a guy from the past. When I come home, I put my focus on other interests and I don’t feel like a tennis player at the moment.